Sebastian's Mommy

Now when I hear this I smile but that wasn't always the case. At first,  I was resistance to this title and would become enraged.  You see, Sebastian is my overweight, some-timey, Maltese that most people only see as a dog; however, he has come to symbolize so much more than a mere pet.  I've experienced my share of loss in my life and at one point in time, I didn't really have the will to want to carry on. It was during this period of time, when Sebastian entered my life.

 A friend of mine was having problems with her dog "knocking down" her youngest child.  She often lamented to me that she didn't know what she was going to do until she remembered that months prior, I told her than that if she ever wanted to give him away, to first give me a call.  Well, she did and thus began my journey into mommy hood. 

Like any relationship, we've had our ups and downs. At one point in time, I had swore that I was going to feed him some chocolate, but that was in the beginning when I had it up to my neck with his excessive barking, using my carpet as his personal bathroom and his absolute refusal to eat anything that didn't resemble chicken.   But once we got past that, he and I came to a understanding that we both needed the others unconditional love to survive. 

He had brought back the joy that had been missing in my life. I can always count on him to know exactly what I needed from him. Whether it's an abundance of his sloppy, wet kisses after a bad day of work or his reassuring face to keep me from crying.  Regardless of how bad I looked or smelled or how crummy I felt, I can always look to him to be right by my side.  My friend once told me that I saved Sebastian's life but I quickly told her, that it was the other way around, he saved mine and for that reason alone, I proudly call myself  Sebastian's mommy.